“Heal me, O Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for You are the One I praise.”
When I was angry with God because I felt He had betrayed me in my childhood, I didn’t want anything to do with Him. I wanted to read self-help books and learn how to be healed without Him. When I happened to remember verses like the one above, I was angry all over again, for I knew that I would only gain true healing from God, and I didn’t want to go to Him. I didn’t want to be beholden to Him. I didn’t want to owe Him anything. I didn’t want to think that the One who I thought had betrayed me was the One who was holding healing in His hands. It was a terrible dilemma.
After a year of being angry with Him and refusing to talk to Him, I relented, but only a little. I realized that I did believe some things about God that were true. I have always believed that He is the Creator. Genesis 1 and 2 have always been literal truth to me. Slowly, as He softened my heart, I was able to believe other things about Him that were true. I came to believe that He was faithful, and I bought a hymnal with the song “Great Is Thy Faithfulness” in it. I sang it to God and eventually added other attributes to the list.
Healing is in God’s job description. It is in His character. When He sees a repentant soul that is crying out to Him, He can’t help but heal her. It’s what He does. He cannot turn off His healing power any more than He can turn off His saving grace. It is such a strong characteristic of His that He will still be doing it in Heaven. The last chapter of the Bible tells us about God healing the nations.
When God heals something, it stays healed. If you begin to hurt in the same place again, be assured that God really did heal the top layer and that He’s only taking you deeper into the wound to heal all the layers. I’ve had three C-sections and various other operations, and I can tell you that those wound layers healed at different rates. The whole wound healed eventually, just as your spirit will.
People were very specific with Jesus about what they wanted Him to heal for them—leprosy, a dying child, blindness, paralyzed legs, or a child with seizures. In fact, many times Jesus asked the seekers what they wanted Him to do. Be specific with God about what you want Him to heal. What would you ask Him to do if He were standing in front of you right now?
No one walked away from Jesus half healed. Neither will you.
This a page from the book When God Roared. Each page will be published, one per day, on this website. We pray that God uses it mightily in your life to swaddle you in His love and heal your precious heart.